Newbie Bandster Again...me??

Huh?

I've often wondered why I haven't lost as much weight as others. This summer will be my 2 yr anniv. I've seen so many fellow bandsters lose sooooo much weight in yr 1. I've seen the details, pictures and personal journey of so many. I have always tried my hardest not to compare myself, because that's just too hard on me mentally.

I get it now! My band has been soooo tight the last 2 days, that I can barely eat. I AM eating and drinking...but not much is goin down. Almost any texture of food gives me problems. No more bread lately, coca cola makes me painfully burpy. Its just odd. But maybe my process has been diff cuz I haven't had a fill since 9 mths post op. I lost my insurance around that same time. I've struggled greatly with portions, quality of food, exercise and mental motivation.

I started taking doxycyline about 10 days ago for my acne...and I'd heard it may tighten my band to the point of "too tight". I don't think I'm there yet but honestly I'M GRATEFUL FOR THE NEW TIGHTNESS and feel I'm finally at this point in my journey that I should've hit a year ago!!!! Its crazy! I've seen so many of you guys say, no more bread and tiny portions and I just always wondered when it would happen to me w/o the ability to get a fill. I feel a lil proud of my uber small portions now, although every meal and new food trips me up. I've gotten stuck on every meal lately...slime....and then end up making myself throw up cuz its so painful and lasts a long time. Yogurt even gives me a fit...n water gurgles goin' down.

I will use this as a learning opportunity to learn the things I shouldn't have been eatin this whole time! I feel so delayed, lol!

P.S. Oddly, I haven't taken very many pics of myself lately. Whether that be head shots, body shots, half naked body shots, just out and about. None of 'em. I don't know why. Either b/c I'm bummed and am not digging how I look OR....I'm getting used to how I am now and where I've been the last few months and so...I'm not too fascinated and/or captivated anymore.

p.s.s. BIG plans for me in the upcoming month. I'm keeping them on the down low for now but I gaurantee I'll share and brag like hell if it goes as planned. For now, I'm feeling a bit superstitious, so I'm not telling many people! =)

xoxo,
Lizzle

Comments

  1. BonnieMarch 9, 2011 at 6:11 PM

    How bad would it be to take doxycyline just for the purpose of making my band tighter? Probably bad. It is so hard not to compare to other people. I totally related because I can eat everything and anything, but I am hopeful that someday I will get to my green zone.

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  2. THE DASH!March 9, 2011 at 6:47 PM

    Poor saus... try not to focus on how much you havent lost but how much you have. You look amazing with your new hair and figure - these are the things to be proud of.

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  3. BlossomMarch 9, 2011 at 7:55 PM

    Just be careful! When you say "gotten stuck on every meal and slime", that was me for the past two months. I finally got a de-fill on Saturday. It was just too much. it's not good to constantly be in that state! Take care of yourself.

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  4. KerriMarch 9, 2011 at 9:25 PM

    Looking forward to hearing some good news.

    Never heard about the Doxycycline tightening the band, interesting. Hang in there girl!!!

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  5. JenMarch 10, 2011 at 6:54 AM

    Interesting! Will the tightness wear off when you finish the meds, do you think?

    Yay for inspiration and motivation!! :D

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