From my heart....and Aimme!

After reading the comments on my last post commending me for doing so well in that last run, I felt it was necessary to post something. It is hard for me to explain how much you guys, your support, and encouragement means to me!!! For me to try to get that across let me give you a little backstory of my life. Growing up, I had dad issues (still do) b/c I felt like he didn't love me and I wasn't good enough for him to stand up for me, after years of rudeness and emotional abuse from stepmoms, (women he chose to marry and allow them to treat ME like shit). Then with my Mom, I adore her and we are super close now, but she has never been one for compliments. She'll say how my shape is lookin' good here and there, but she is not one to compliment you on a monumental milestone, be so happy for you she could cry, or just say "great job". I hear from family friends and family members that she brags about me all the time, but rarely does she tell me those things herself.

So I have NEVEr in my life had confidence in myself like I do TODAY, NOW, THIS PART OF MY LIFE! I was alittle confident as a teenager but never felt good in my own skin. Then I got fatter and was in bad relationships and it just tore me up on the inside, all the things I went through. When I chose 2 yrs ago to be on a journey to a better me, It was the best thing I've done in MY LIFE! A TINY part of that, was the lapband surgery. But making my way through my life, my goals, and accomplishing things that meant something to me (no matter what anybody else thought) I have come through the haze to a beautiful, blissful place where I am deeply in love with MYSELF. I do not consider myself conceited b/c I still have my own issues and things I am insecure about. But I am in such a good place now, even after this recent "break up" w/ a dude I was falling madly for. I will be fine, I will move on stronger w/ some sort of lesson learned! I'll keep on keepin' on and make it to where I want to be. B/c it took me years to truly realize that I was the only thing holding ME back!!!!!!

So when I say your compliments and encouragement mean the world, it's because I hadn't heard them much in my life until the last year or so. And I still do not hear them from some of the people who mean the most to me, in this life. But hearing them from people who see my honest and raw experiences and struggles, I'm just so blessed for you guys to have my back! Genuine compliments to me mean the world and make me feel like such a lucky girl and that I really CAN do it. It's just nice for people to see and acknowledge the hard things  you are doing for yourself to get to where you want to be.

Any journey we choose in difficult in one way or another. But I feel like when you choose a path that is less traveled and more difficult, it has the BEST rewards and self-satisfaction at the end!!!!

Ok so enough of my happiness ramblings. Now for pics and info on Aimme and I!

After our workout. We did a 4.2 mile walk. worked in a bit of a run in there but we talked the entire time, and it's hard to keep up a conversation when you are running! haha! I tried! So I was fine walking the miles away, getting to know Ms. Aimme!!!

Us, at my gym! After our workout we stopped so she could go have lunch w/ a friend and then we stood outside and talked for almost TWO HOURS! It was so great getting to see you Aimme!!!! OH, and she gave me a HUGE bag of clothes! Woo hoo! My first experience w/ the sisterhood of sharing clothes, I can't wait to try them on!!!

xoxo,

Liz