Restriction???? huh???
Alright, so if you would've asked me 2 fills ago I'd say I had minor restriction followed by decent restriction. The two wks prior to this last fill I was able to eat a lot of food, but not morbid amounts of food, so that sucked. Well, well well, here I am today. Two days after my last fill, bringing me to either 9.5 or 7, depending on what you feel about losing saline, and it's here. Tomorrow am was supposed to be when I went on solids. But I had Ramona's lasagna rolls and soft soft steamed broccoli for dinner tonight. The broccoli was soooo good I ate 1/2 of it first. Like probably 10 small heads. Then I went on to the lasagna rolls. I had maybe 1/3 of it and wanted to finish the yummy broccoli. So I did finish the broccoli, then SLOWLY went in to finish the lasagna roll. I go like one bite down, chewed it slowly, then swallowed. THEN, put another bite in my mouth. Before I even had time to chew, I felt that last one catch in my throat. It felt soooo weird. I have had this minor sensation before, but not this "strong". So w/ food in my mouth and my family all around, I didn't want to spit it out. Sooo, I slowly chewed and slowly swallowed and the feeling got worse. I thought I was going to PB right there. I got up, put my plate in the kitchen, and went for the bathroom. I felt like burps and pains and food barely sliding down. I stood in the bathroom starring at myself in the mirror and almost felt like an anorexic chick hiding for a second. Weird! Not a good feeling.
So I stood there and closed my eyes and took a few deep breaths, it feeling better and better w/ each one. It went down. I felt it all the way down. Now it's 15 mins later and I feel just fine. But it just made me realize how I"m either AT my sweet spot or the closest I've ever been. It's so unreal. I've spent the last 15 mins reflecting on the food left on my plate, how much I could eat a week ago, and realizing the real change is HERE! So w/ the sadness of my huge plates, I feel optimal bliss on how the weight will fall off faster now. I'm happy!
xoxo,
Libby
So I stood there and closed my eyes and took a few deep breaths, it feeling better and better w/ each one. It went down. I felt it all the way down. Now it's 15 mins later and I feel just fine. But it just made me realize how I"m either AT my sweet spot or the closest I've ever been. It's so unreal. I've spent the last 15 mins reflecting on the food left on my plate, how much I could eat a week ago, and realizing the real change is HERE! So w/ the sadness of my huge plates, I feel optimal bliss on how the weight will fall off faster now. I'm happy!
xoxo,
Libby
You sound like you are where I am right now! Almost exactly like the stuck episodes I have had since my last fill, and now eating so much less than before. I hope this is the sweet spot for you!
ReplyDeleteBTW I do work at home, I am a lawyer...but I only research and write briefs now part-time, none of the rest of it (no going to court, etc.) Which works out just fine until I have a deadline like this week! Hard to manage work deadlines with 4 kids. Luckily my DH does help a bunch. And I know how lucky I am to be able to work from home.
What is your job?
Umm congratulations?!?!? I can't wait to hit the sweet spot, hope that is where you are!
ReplyDeleteWell thank goodness you are feeling something! Just be careful until you feel everything out!
ReplyDeleteYeah it's awesome! I'm feeling a lot! and what I've eatin' so far today goes to show how much restriction I DO have. It's a fabulous thing!
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