BYOC!!!!!! (and random thoughts)
It’s another episode of BYOC….Bring Your Own Crazy….where we answer questions to get to know each other better. Come join us! Copy and paste to your blog and have fun!
1. If you wrote a biography on your life, what would the title be?
"On the way to Greatness"
There is this quote I wanted TATTOOED on my body, on my back. My goal last New Years Eve was to get it some time this year. I just recently remembered that. I better get on it. It's this:
"The path one must travel to reach greatness passes through the realm of pain. With the heart of a lion, persevere I shall." :D Roar!
2. Would you take $1 million dollars to leave your present life – including friends and family – to start over somewhere else? You’re leaving your physical location to never go back but you can contact them via phone and net and such. (you take your immediate family with you..spouse, kids, etc.)
YUS! I love and value my family...but they crowd me. I am the baby of my siblings and people think that gives them the right to boss and sass me and it somehow means I will always fail b/c "the baby" is never parented as well as the older siblings. Whatever fuckers! I have a good head on my shoulders. I don't feel 25, I feel 35. Except i just hope to own a house before I'm 30...that's the only thing that makes me feel like I'm actually 25. I hate renting. BUT also, I am too dependent on my Mom emotionally. We are very close and over the last few years I have valued our closeness AND also realized how suffocated she can make me feel.
3. Are you a person everyone trusts or do you have trouble trusting everyone or both?
Everyone trust me. I used to trust everyone until they gave me a reason not to. This past year in dating...I no longer trust people so easily.
4. Looking back, if I asked you what one event changed the course of your life – and you had to answer immediately the first thing that popped into your head…what would it be?
If I put a lot of thought into this, there's no telling what it would be. But I will just go with what instantly popped into my head. Riley's father, Roger, walking away from me when I was 19 and 10 wks pregnant. That hurt. But then he got in contact with me months later, promised me a future, promised to see his son born, helped me name him, told me that he once again loved me, and then never showed up to Riley's birth. I have never heard from him since then. THAT still evokes physical pain in my chest, to this day. I wish he did not have that power over me. I loved him so deeply, still have love for him. Makes me sad when Riley looks like him. Makes me sad when Riley asks about him. Roger found a way to hurt me constantly for all of eternity...just by giving me a child and leaving. I would've done anything for that man... I slipped into a clinical depression, got fired that same week, could not get out of bed, could barely move, let the world consume me. For months I'd cry at the drop of a hat. I rarely smiled. I was broken, ripped apart and had never experienced such a deep suffering in my life, and thankfully have not since then. I still remember those days. I...don't know how I managed. The birth of Riley turned my world around. He was and is such a perfect child. His happiness, laughter, and smile made me realize things die and things are new. It's almost as if God said "Roger was here to teach you a lesson. You learned. But for your suffering, I'm giving you Riley. He will provide you with endless joy and pride, even in HIS worst moments." True story...
5. Repeat question: Summarize your week in life and in blogland.
Hmmmm, Let's see...School this week was cool. Tue I did well in class and ok on a quiz and then Thur night we got to dissect sheep brains. That was rather fascinating! :) I was with Lloyd Mon and Thur night, so those are always good times! This week Riley impressed me with his HW mood. He HATES hw. But he is soooo good at if he just focuses. This week he did me proud! Getting called for interviews this week is like such an ego boost. Like "OHH look I'm not a dead beat. People like me, people want me. Wooooo!" Ya know, resumes always stress me. Like how do you truly convey who you are w/o your own frilly words and pictures? I dunno. But hopefully I'll have a few choices in job and I can pick the best for me! We had crazy weather here in Phoenix. Rain almost non stop Monday and Tuesday. Tuesday night there was actually the worst hale storm on record AND tornado! EEeeeeehhhh! Glad I didn't know about that until Wed am or else I would've been in fetal position, rocking in my closet floor with my babies, blankets, and food preserves :S Oh and yes ma'am I ran 2x this week and am going again today for a 3rd. Second was easier than the first, felt better. The wind in my face and swooshing through my arm pits was JUST GLORIOUS!
Next week I'm looking forward to my little sister (half sister) and her girlfriend moving to Phoenix late next week! OMG! I absolutely adore her! She's my mini me! :D hehe! We will have sooo much fun together! Oh and our State Fair starts in the next week or two! Fun Fun!
RANDOMNESS ABOUNDS....
*Today I feel scatter brained.
*Last night at Lloyds his huge choc lab jumped up towards his nightstand, knocked his Pepsi down INTO my purse upside down on the floor. It's sugary hell spread throughout my purse like Satin himself. Soaked my beloved mp3 player and my happiness provider digital camera :( We were outside smoking. I noticed it immediately when we came back :( I tried so hard not to flip out. I actually did NOT flip. She's a dog, an adorable dog, I love her to pieces and....she's just a dog. But yet that does not undo the fact that a $150 mp3 player $200 camera and $250 COUCH bag were all in question. I sat on the floor, fighting back tears, getting everything out one by one drying them and then mopping the interior of my purse with a towel :'( Mp3 ended up being ok, I'm lovingly listening to it right now. It is on me about 80% of my life, music setting my mood and tone of my day always! Camera...is dead. Lloyd apologized profusely, said he'd give me his, said he'd buy me a new one. I didn't need any of that. I don't know what I needed actually. But I was somehow not content with any words of encouragement he offered. I just crawled into bed, went into my own little world, and acted like all was well...although it was not. I fell asleep mad. forgot about it by the time I woke up again, remembered as I was leaving and I was bummed again. But hectic morning life w/ my boys was calling so I forgot about it. Camera was a gift from my mom less than 9 mths ago. I called her hoping it had insurance. ALAS, IT DOES! So I will be at Staples licidy split this morning hoping to get a replacement ASAP! I probably take 10-20 pictures (at least) daily.
*I ate left over pizza for breakfast this morning...
*I cannot hack my Monster addiction...
*I have minimal healthy food in the house right now, MUST go to the store asap or true failure will prevail.
*I started looking for full time Pharmacy Tech work last week. Staying home is the pits. I do manage to keep myself busy and the writing job is fun, I have two now. But I can ONLY write when I'm actually motivated. And that only strikes about 2x a week for each, sometimes less. The money is ok but I want More money. I want vacations, new Couch bag, new wardrobe, AND I have to pay tuition this term (argh!) so...I want and need to go back to full time regular work with the masses, which is slightly depressing. I truly hate the Monday-Friday 9-5 gig, I like the freedom, I like being late, I like long breaks. :S I'll find a middle ground somehow. But so the good news about that, is I already have 2 interviews for next week and another call to set up a 3rd that I got this morning. Turns out, Pharmacy Techs really are always in demand. I am proud of my "late teens temporary career choice"!
*I want to get my kids in sports. But I have no time. Right now Riley does Violin and a tutor club, both once a week. Got him signed up for Cub Scouts (super exciting) but haven't gone yet. We need to do that. And all the sudden he's beggin' me to play Basketball...I don't even know it's that season. Konnor really shows no interest in sports...but I'd like to try him in Karate. Konnor has a VERY new found love of art and music. That fills my heart with happiness. Although is new love means my walls have a few marker and pencil marks and "circles" on them, worthy of major punishment...I appreciate this new love of his. And if he keeps up with the music, I will learn Acoustic Guitar JUST to teach him. He can repeat lines and melodies of a song, hearing it only once. It's adorable!
*Aimme Jo sent me an audio book and a book on dating advice for women and ....I believe the other is for women and just on living life to your fullest. Something like that. I am stoked to read those. But I also have material she gave me on "Intro to Buddhism" stuff AND a book of "World Religion" I'd like to read...not to mention all mine and Lloyd's enthralling conversations about Catholicism. I just have TOO MUCH to read and go through right now.
*I feel an insightful post brewing. However, I'm too mentally exhausted right now to even begin it. Hopefully today I can put those thoughts into words...or a vlog...it could be grand!
*I ordered a new phone. Mine is through Verizon, an HTC Droid Incredible touch screen (I believe). I absolutely love and adore it. However, when I got it I did not get a protective cover or insurance (oops) and within a few wks Riley accidentally knocked it out of my hand and shattered the screen. I've dealt w/ that b/c the phone STILL WORKS. Then about a week ago, it got to where when people call and I actually answer, they cannot HEAR me. Lovely. So I thought this would be a great time to brand off my parents cell phone bill. I got all set up with Tmobile and I got the My Touch 3G Slide! I'm stoked! should be here Saturday or Monday!!!! :D I love technology. I just wonder why it doesn't like me. I can't keep anything over a year.
*I'm listening to Aaron Neville now. His voice is like a happy, joyous little person inside my body hugging my heart and stroking my ear drums! :D Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh......
xoxo,
Libby Lou
1. If you wrote a biography on your life, what would the title be?
"On the way to Greatness"
There is this quote I wanted TATTOOED on my body, on my back. My goal last New Years Eve was to get it some time this year. I just recently remembered that. I better get on it. It's this:
"The path one must travel to reach greatness passes through the realm of pain. With the heart of a lion, persevere I shall." :D Roar!
2. Would you take $1 million dollars to leave your present life – including friends and family – to start over somewhere else? You’re leaving your physical location to never go back but you can contact them via phone and net and such. (you take your immediate family with you..spouse, kids, etc.)
YUS! I love and value my family...but they crowd me. I am the baby of my siblings and people think that gives them the right to boss and sass me and it somehow means I will always fail b/c "the baby" is never parented as well as the older siblings. Whatever fuckers! I have a good head on my shoulders. I don't feel 25, I feel 35. Except i just hope to own a house before I'm 30...that's the only thing that makes me feel like I'm actually 25. I hate renting. BUT also, I am too dependent on my Mom emotionally. We are very close and over the last few years I have valued our closeness AND also realized how suffocated she can make me feel.
3. Are you a person everyone trusts or do you have trouble trusting everyone or both?
Everyone trust me. I used to trust everyone until they gave me a reason not to. This past year in dating...I no longer trust people so easily.
4. Looking back, if I asked you what one event changed the course of your life – and you had to answer immediately the first thing that popped into your head…what would it be?
If I put a lot of thought into this, there's no telling what it would be. But I will just go with what instantly popped into my head. Riley's father, Roger, walking away from me when I was 19 and 10 wks pregnant. That hurt. But then he got in contact with me months later, promised me a future, promised to see his son born, helped me name him, told me that he once again loved me, and then never showed up to Riley's birth. I have never heard from him since then. THAT still evokes physical pain in my chest, to this day. I wish he did not have that power over me. I loved him so deeply, still have love for him. Makes me sad when Riley looks like him. Makes me sad when Riley asks about him. Roger found a way to hurt me constantly for all of eternity...just by giving me a child and leaving. I would've done anything for that man... I slipped into a clinical depression, got fired that same week, could not get out of bed, could barely move, let the world consume me. For months I'd cry at the drop of a hat. I rarely smiled. I was broken, ripped apart and had never experienced such a deep suffering in my life, and thankfully have not since then. I still remember those days. I...don't know how I managed. The birth of Riley turned my world around. He was and is such a perfect child. His happiness, laughter, and smile made me realize things die and things are new. It's almost as if God said "Roger was here to teach you a lesson. You learned. But for your suffering, I'm giving you Riley. He will provide you with endless joy and pride, even in HIS worst moments." True story...
5. Repeat question: Summarize your week in life and in blogland.
Hmmmm, Let's see...School this week was cool. Tue I did well in class and ok on a quiz and then Thur night we got to dissect sheep brains. That was rather fascinating! :) I was with Lloyd Mon and Thur night, so those are always good times! This week Riley impressed me with his HW mood. He HATES hw. But he is soooo good at if he just focuses. This week he did me proud! Getting called for interviews this week is like such an ego boost. Like "OHH look I'm not a dead beat. People like me, people want me. Wooooo!" Ya know, resumes always stress me. Like how do you truly convey who you are w/o your own frilly words and pictures? I dunno. But hopefully I'll have a few choices in job and I can pick the best for me! We had crazy weather here in Phoenix. Rain almost non stop Monday and Tuesday. Tuesday night there was actually the worst hale storm on record AND tornado! EEeeeeehhhh! Glad I didn't know about that until Wed am or else I would've been in fetal position, rocking in my closet floor with my babies, blankets, and food preserves :S Oh and yes ma'am I ran 2x this week and am going again today for a 3rd. Second was easier than the first, felt better. The wind in my face and swooshing through my arm pits was JUST GLORIOUS!
Next week I'm looking forward to my little sister (half sister) and her girlfriend moving to Phoenix late next week! OMG! I absolutely adore her! She's my mini me! :D hehe! We will have sooo much fun together! Oh and our State Fair starts in the next week or two! Fun Fun!
RANDOMNESS ABOUNDS....
*Today I feel scatter brained.
*Last night at Lloyds his huge choc lab jumped up towards his nightstand, knocked his Pepsi down INTO my purse upside down on the floor. It's sugary hell spread throughout my purse like Satin himself. Soaked my beloved mp3 player and my happiness provider digital camera :( We were outside smoking. I noticed it immediately when we came back :( I tried so hard not to flip out. I actually did NOT flip. She's a dog, an adorable dog, I love her to pieces and....she's just a dog. But yet that does not undo the fact that a $150 mp3 player $200 camera and $250 COUCH bag were all in question. I sat on the floor, fighting back tears, getting everything out one by one drying them and then mopping the interior of my purse with a towel :'( Mp3 ended up being ok, I'm lovingly listening to it right now. It is on me about 80% of my life, music setting my mood and tone of my day always! Camera...is dead. Lloyd apologized profusely, said he'd give me his, said he'd buy me a new one. I didn't need any of that. I don't know what I needed actually. But I was somehow not content with any words of encouragement he offered. I just crawled into bed, went into my own little world, and acted like all was well...although it was not. I fell asleep mad. forgot about it by the time I woke up again, remembered as I was leaving and I was bummed again. But hectic morning life w/ my boys was calling so I forgot about it. Camera was a gift from my mom less than 9 mths ago. I called her hoping it had insurance. ALAS, IT DOES! So I will be at Staples licidy split this morning hoping to get a replacement ASAP! I probably take 10-20 pictures (at least) daily.
*I ate left over pizza for breakfast this morning...
*I cannot hack my Monster addiction...
*I have minimal healthy food in the house right now, MUST go to the store asap or true failure will prevail.
*I started looking for full time Pharmacy Tech work last week. Staying home is the pits. I do manage to keep myself busy and the writing job is fun, I have two now. But I can ONLY write when I'm actually motivated. And that only strikes about 2x a week for each, sometimes less. The money is ok but I want More money. I want vacations, new Couch bag, new wardrobe, AND I have to pay tuition this term (argh!) so...I want and need to go back to full time regular work with the masses, which is slightly depressing. I truly hate the Monday-Friday 9-5 gig, I like the freedom, I like being late, I like long breaks. :S I'll find a middle ground somehow. But so the good news about that, is I already have 2 interviews for next week and another call to set up a 3rd that I got this morning. Turns out, Pharmacy Techs really are always in demand. I am proud of my "late teens temporary career choice"!
*I want to get my kids in sports. But I have no time. Right now Riley does Violin and a tutor club, both once a week. Got him signed up for Cub Scouts (super exciting) but haven't gone yet. We need to do that. And all the sudden he's beggin' me to play Basketball...I don't even know it's that season. Konnor really shows no interest in sports...but I'd like to try him in Karate. Konnor has a VERY new found love of art and music. That fills my heart with happiness. Although is new love means my walls have a few marker and pencil marks and "circles" on them, worthy of major punishment...I appreciate this new love of his. And if he keeps up with the music, I will learn Acoustic Guitar JUST to teach him. He can repeat lines and melodies of a song, hearing it only once. It's adorable!
*Aimme Jo sent me an audio book and a book on dating advice for women and ....I believe the other is for women and just on living life to your fullest. Something like that. I am stoked to read those. But I also have material she gave me on "Intro to Buddhism" stuff AND a book of "World Religion" I'd like to read...not to mention all mine and Lloyd's enthralling conversations about Catholicism. I just have TOO MUCH to read and go through right now.
*I feel an insightful post brewing. However, I'm too mentally exhausted right now to even begin it. Hopefully today I can put those thoughts into words...or a vlog...it could be grand!
*I ordered a new phone. Mine is through Verizon, an HTC Droid Incredible touch screen (I believe). I absolutely love and adore it. However, when I got it I did not get a protective cover or insurance (oops) and within a few wks Riley accidentally knocked it out of my hand and shattered the screen. I've dealt w/ that b/c the phone STILL WORKS. Then about a week ago, it got to where when people call and I actually answer, they cannot HEAR me. Lovely. So I thought this would be a great time to brand off my parents cell phone bill. I got all set up with Tmobile and I got the My Touch 3G Slide! I'm stoked! should be here Saturday or Monday!!!! :D I love technology. I just wonder why it doesn't like me. I can't keep anything over a year.
*I'm listening to Aaron Neville now. His voice is like a happy, joyous little person inside my body hugging my heart and stroking my ear drums! :D Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh......
xoxo,
Libby Lou
Great answers. Really feel for you that Robert couldn't step up. I can't even imagine how hard it must have been, but sounds like Riley made up for his tool of a father. I'm not sure I would have been able to stay calm to find a soda dumped in my Coach purse which held my Mp3 player and camera. YIKES!
ReplyDeleteGreat BYOC. Your #4 brought tears. I think you should adapt that somehow to make the title of your autobiography... really awesome.
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