It pours...

Another bad day.

Depression really is so debilitating. 

I've never felt this far from myself.

Don't think I've gone this long w/o truly smiling or laughing. 

Don't think I've ever thought such horrible, negative thoughts before.

Just 2 more days until I see the doctor...

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  1. MBFebruary 12, 2011 at 8:22 PM

    Hang in there, Beautiful Lady!!!! Monday will be here soon, and, hopefully, your appointment will be just what you need! LOVE YOU!!!

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  2. AnonymousFebruary 12, 2011 at 8:39 PM

    Hang in there, you can get through this. You are stronger than you think and you will be ok. Just keep thinking positive thoughts and make it till Monday when you can talk to the doc. I will keep you in my prayers.

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  3. BonnieFebruary 12, 2011 at 9:18 PM

    I am so glad you are seeing a doctor. I am praying that it helps because I hate that you are feeling like this.

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  4. SamFebruary 13, 2011 at 12:10 AM

    You can do it. Happy thoughts are coming your way :o) I hope you can work this out with the doctor.

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  5. SandyFebruary 13, 2011 at 6:18 AM

    Oh Sweetie. Call your doc today and see if they can see you earlier. We're listening whenever you want to talk. It can get better.

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  6. KerriFebruary 13, 2011 at 6:38 AM

    Sending hugs and love your way!

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  7. Liz - Lizzle - Libby LouFebruary 13, 2011 at 8:56 AM

    Thank you guys! sometimes I feel really bad for spilling this on my blog...but really I have no one else to tell who is willing to listen. So thank you for being here.

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  8. Jen from OregonFebruary 13, 2011 at 9:48 AM

    It will get better! ((HUGS))

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  9. ♥ Drazil ♥February 13, 2011 at 11:48 AM

    Oh honey - hang in there...try not to let yourself be alone when you feel like this....I'll be praying for you.

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  10. The NinjaFebruary 13, 2011 at 2:03 PM

    Seeing the doctor is a good step, this too will pass. I'm sending you happy vibes from Missouri.

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  11. KerriFebruary 13, 2011 at 4:51 PM

    Depression is debilitating. Are you on meds? Let's talk more some time.

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