Eating & body pics!

Just wanted to do a quick post this morning before our mad dash to get ready begins. My mood has been shit lately. It's unlike me. I'm frustrated. I try to stay optimistic and remind myself that people don't steadily lose until 2-3 mths out it starts "falling off", and I'm just coming off my ( . ). Sooo, with that I'm hoping I can wait to weigh until Friday. Today I'm getting my ass to gym, and hopefully everyday this week except Thur b/c it's "Meet the teacher" night for Riley man.

Yesterday I ate crazy. I figured out I do not have AS MUCH restriction as I did a week ago, but I still have some. So I basically cheated around it by snacking and drinking w/ my food. I ate all healthy things though, I had a turkey sandwich on wheat, then I had sugar free jell-o an hour later, then I had some SunChips an hour later. Just munch munch munch!


As I laid in bed last night feeling full, fat, and pissed off, I tried to think of the moment in the day that set it off. I did well all day at work. Then when I came home I did well w/ dinner. It was sometime between 6pm and 9pm something clicked for me to send me into overdrive emotional eating. I THINK it was frustration w/ my boys. They share a room and they always play for awhile when I put them to bed. Well I'm only cool w/ it lasting around 30 minutes then the enforcer comes out of me and they MUST SLEEP. Well last night they went on and on for an hour and 45 minutes. I even spanked them, yelled, threatened, took toys away, etc. BUT THEY WOULD NOT GO TO SLEEP. and I was so exhausted like 30 mins into the journey, I fell asleep laying across my bed. Then they come wake me up to show me they're still awake. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr! That pissed me off, in fact, I think that was the moment I started eating. B/c I was so tired, I wanted to go to sleep early, they needed to go to sleep, but nothing was working out. I bet that's what it was. B/c my issues all come from needing to have control over something. So when I feel "out of control" I control my food by slammin' it down. Omg! I just wish I would've realized that last night. Iw ould have just gone to sleep w/ them up and said "screw it" destroy my house if you must! Instead I was up until 1am snacking and watching TV.


Hope I can blog later w/ some happiness, this downer shit makes me want to vomit. Oh and I thought I'd add a few pics of my body. Amy posted her measurements (thank you, thank you) and we are very similar but I think she's way cuter. So I'm posting my body shot on this site so that it's up here for all to see.



Me now. taken last week. I had to cut my own head off b/c I was makin' at mean face at my 4 yo takin' the pic! haha! These jeans are not flattering, I'm aware of that. But they are the only ones that don't fall off or give me muffin top. I'm waiting to lose 10-15 more lbs before I buy anymore.



Me in January '09 gettin' ready for work. Around 278




The one time I went to lane bryant, pre-op, about 270

XoXo,

Liz

Comments

  1. THE DASH!August 4, 2009 at 9:10 PM

    Amy is beautiful, there's no doubt about it, but if she reads this she would go.. hello.. I have some serious competition.
    You are gorgeous girl!!
    Sorry you had such a crap night. Reminds me how things used to be when my boys were smaller. Don't miss that side of things for a minute. But hey, look on the bright side. You were able to sit back and go.. ok, what set me off? Not many people actually do that. So really well done!!

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  2. Amy W.August 5, 2009 at 11:52 AM

    Hey...you are pretty damn hot! Is that what my body looks like too? That is kinda trippy bc when I look at you, you look way smaller then me. I kinda want you to pass me and get smaller then me so you can send me your cute clothes :)

    For real...you look good!

    And thanks Cara! I just now figured out Liz had a blog so I am playing catch up!

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  3. Liz - Lizzle - Libby LouAugust 5, 2009 at 9:11 PM

    Thanks, you guys are sweeties! I do loveeeeeeeeeee my boys but I would have to say the bedtime thing is the one serious frustation I have w/ them. I refuse to let them "stay up" playing in the LR for that extra hour b/c I know how important sleep is for their education and their moods. Ahhh! They just need seperate rooms but this year we downgraded to a 2 bedroom to save money and that's working, so yay! whatever! haha!

    It's so funny Amy that you think i am cuter or smaller or something b/c I look at you and think the same thing. If I have time tonight I might steal your bathing suit shot and do side by sides so we can both see. I think it's so fun to find people right around your size and shape b/c everybody is so different, it's hard to find someone you can exactly relate to. Geez, i get excited just meeting another fat cute dressing person. Most "over weight" women at my work are older and dress the part. You dress super cute!!! B/c of you I am going to search for a cute dress next time I go clothes shopping. My mom will probably pass out.

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