PC update....hmmmmmmmmm

Most recent update w/ Prince charming, I found out he's 43 b/c he was playing this guessing game w/ my friend Linda. When she got it he leaned over and said "you should get an email from linda soon, she just figured it out." and he seemed kind of bummed.

So I decided I'd play along and pretend she didn't tell me. So within a few hrs I said "maybe she's playing a game now too b/c she never told me."

he says "so how old are you anyway?" looking curious.

i say "huh?" (hehe b/c i did NOT want to answer OR lie)
he asks again.
i say "24!" all chipper like.

he says "omg you're such a baby. i remember 24, 24 was good. wow!" and his words trail off as he stares into outer space. obviously remembering some good times.

LATER...

oh btw this is the layout of where we sit

him here {wall} rph tom
deana {wall} me
(so he sits caddy corner from me, sort of)

so later...

his computer is broken and while he waits for IT he comes to chat w/ me. He hangs at my desk for long periods of time, looking at pics of my boys, commenting and just being weird like usual. distracting me w/ his beautifulNESS right? ah! so then after his comp broke for the 4th time I say, "move to tom's desk, he's not here and at least i don't have to listen to you bitch anymore". so he does.

so, per above diagram, we are now side by side. I have a raised desk, ie bar heigth, so I can stand and work. when i do that now i only do it to stare at phil. so i was sitting in my bar heigth chair and he's sitting in a regular chair at tom's desk and our heads are like parallel, whatever you call it. So we manage to work w/o talking for maybe an hour. He keeps peeking over at me, i keep stealing glances at his chiseled jaw line and watch him lick his lips as he works (i'm obcessed, I'm aware). Sooo, then almost everyone was gone and the talking really started.

This was when I got to find out deeper things about him, more places he's lived, all the places he's traveled. I was immensley impressed w/ his traveling adventures and horribly jealous. I would pack up and travel the globe 24/7 kids in tow, if I could afford it. Apparently he feels the same and didn't have anything to stop him. He has literally been in almost every country, including asia and south america, europe like 10x and africa. he's talking and i'm starring deeply into his eyes as I'm imagining these places and how I'd envy to be one of the pages in his photo albums.

i say "you've been to all those places?" sounding like alil school girl i'm sure.

"yes"

"did you take a bunch of pictures?" i asked, drooling now.

"yes"

omg my thoughts wander off to a night w/ us at his house sitting by a fire naked (just for fun, haha) flipping through photo after photo after photo. I could fall asleep to hearing him tell stories. and to be honest, I'm not sure I really commenting after that. I'm sure I had a "far away stare moment" then myself.

We spent 2 hrs talking until it was time for both of us to leave. I had stayed 3 hrs after my scheduled time off just to stare and talk at him (though I did get some work done in there).

now....the age. 43. i don't t hink it's a bad age. I think 43 and I think...my moms 53, my dads 53, my stepdad is 65, my oldest bf yet is 36, my sister is 30, my brother is 36. So i think in comparison. He's not as old as my parents so I'm cool w/ that...older than my siblings but could still be their "friend" so i'm cool w/ that. so the number itself, I'm fine with.

What comes w/ that number is what I question. does he have kids? No stupid me has yet to ask but i've talked about my kids numerous times giving him opportunities to talk about his...possible kids....that i hope he doesn't have. my thing is, if he's in his 40's, he could have a kid my age. haha! i'm only 24. so it's feasible.

if he had little kids, then yay, the more the merrier. i love kids! i love allll kids and i want more kids (possibly) so I'm fine w/ that. But older kids who would hate me and think I'm a whore...not cool w/ that.

so now i know that personally, we are good. I LIKE HIM, DUH! My mind gets swallowed whole in our conversations, yet he pushes me. I don't know if I mentioned that. I can say some weird scientific fact I heard on disc channel and he'll challenge me...or offer up his own and Intrigue me. And once I said something about dreaming big and wishing to travel the world.

he said "when you gonna start that?"

so i said "well, sometime, when i can. my kids are little now and I need money to do the things I want to do."

and he said "there is always an excuse that keeps us from living the life we wnat to live. like me, i kept saying 'someday' but a few yrs ago I finally realized that someday is now and you have to start NOw to make your dreams happen. Don't keep waiting and saying it will happen later."

i couldn't even reply, I just had to process it. So true! So how about he sotp thinking and process this and just jump all over me. haha!

in conclusion: i already know im totally attracted to him, his personality, his experiences. i just want to sit and talk to him for hours picking his brain. and he's like that too. he's a good communicator and loves talking. i was so captivated with all his stories, he's been all over the world. and when we talk he stares straight into my eyes the entire time. that is what i love! that is what i need! i want him i just don't know how to approach him about it or if i should wait for him to ask me out.
Peace!
xoxo,
Liz