Blah Blah blabby blah!
Ugh! If any of you are on my FB then you know today did NOT start well. Let’s see…did I update on Friday? Hmmmm. Well if not, here goes. It was a super busy day, running errands, out of the house, had to drive an hour to meet up with my Mom for a bit and so I knew it’d be “tough” to squeeze in a workout and for some reason I don’t really try too hard to go to the gym for 30 mins. I dunno why. But I like to go when I have 1-2 hrs free. So I did not go. I didn’t feel bad, I had other priorities and thought about working out ALL day, just couldn’t make it happen. So now guilt there.
Then I thought all weekend how could I squeeze a workout in. I did do my exercises at home (sit ups, push ups, dips, etc.) and I’ve been doing them every single night. The soreness in my arms feels wonderful! So Saturday I got in a light swim at my Moms because for about 45 mins literally swimming around, takes more effort than I remember, lol! Ate well Saturday (1275 calories) . Sunday: No workout and ate about “ok”, 1468. MFP says I should eat 1700/day and I can’t figure out why it’s so high. My ultimate “don’t go over” goal is 1500. My goal is 1200.
So then to today. I woke up fine, a little sad and lonely but I went about my day. Took the boys to summer day camp and came home to take care of some business. Was planning for a workout by mid morning after I came home and prepared myself a healthy, home cooked meal (trying to not do Fast food and I was doing it EVERY SINGLE MORNING). So this “come home to eat healthy” thing was new. So I made scrambled eggs w/ a lil cheese, 2 little sausage patties and 1 slice of wheat toast. I couldn’t eat it all so next time I’ll cook less. I thought it was a great start to a healthy day. Then I just never could get around to the gym. I had an “argument” with my sister this morning after having one with my Mom last night. And it just made me feel like everyone was out to attack me for some reason. That on top of the fact that I cannot JUST CALL S when I need to vent or be loved on….well it just sucked. It was a morning from hell, one in which I even commented about on my FB and generally I resolve to put NO NEGATIVE OR WHINEY ASS statements on my FB page, b/c I think that’s lame. But I let it get to me today. In fact, I let it ruin most of my day. I spent the day at home, sad, moping around, not talking to anybody. I felt like I had nobody to talk to. In reality, of course I did, I could’ve called somebody.
But in that sad moment I thought it’d be a good time to think about these insecurities S has brought up in me. I literally sat at my computer starring at the blogs (not reading), just starring for 20 mins, thinking. Finally I felt like I was thinking myself in circles and I’d just go lay in my bed with my ever cozy and comforting pillow. I did that for about 45 mins listening to “Bridge Over Troubled Waters” by Aaron Neville just wishing I had someone who cared about me THAT deeply, namely…A MAN! So just kept thinking and thinking and thinking and was going no where. It’s like maybe I was trying too hard to figure out what’s going on inside. So I decided I’d go and get hair cut today. Hair now:
That made me feel better. Then I decided I’m going to color it. My Choices:
Yet to color it though, because I can’t decide. Dark and passionate or light and flirty! Think I'm gonna do light on top and dark underneath!
I’ve yet to write an article for my writing job, which blows because obviously I need the money from that. But I feel like while I’m at odds or just “blah” about S that it seems as though I have no motivation to write. I am highly motivated to write with I’m gooey in love or extra pissed at men. I don’t know why it always turns out that way, but it does really help my writing.
I’ve had about 1347 calories so far today and no dinner, really. I did the healthy breakfast, made a banana protein shake to take with me on errands (delish!) and then came home starving for some reason and made a “healthy” cheese quesadilla (wheat tortilla and RF cheddar cheese, very little) and it was wonderful! Then ended up having tea and snacking on sun chips. So haven’t had dinner but I’m not hungry so I may skip it.
NSV’s recently I forgot to share:
-We were at McDonald’s about a week ago and I was getting me and the boys dinner. I roll up to the “get your food” window and the lady sticks out a milk shake and says “We accidentally made an extra strawberry shake, would you like it for free?” (OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG FREE!) AND I said “Please, no thank you!” and she looked at me like I was crazy! Score! 1 point for Liz!
-We were in Wal-Mart this past weekend and as we were leaving I knew we’d be walking past the little fridge with Monster’s in them. I usually will get one when we grocery shop b/c it’s so delish. I saw it, eyed it, said no, eyed it some more, said hell no, and just kept on walking!!! ‘nother point for Liz!
-This past Saturday as we were at my moms and the boys were swimming, my mom decided to BBQ hot dogs and junk. Hot dogs, I don’t know why, are a recent add in to our family BBQ’s. We used to be so complicated and only do heavy meats, potato salad, baked beans, etc. But lately Mom is going for easier and she started this the end of May. There have been THREE BBQ’s since the end of May, all of which I partake in the hot dogs. I had missed hot dogs. I don’t eat them often, hadn’t in forever. But made on the grill, I had forgotten how yummy. All 3 of these BBQ’s I had 2, yes 2, hot dogs ON buns and did manage to eat them w/o getting sick (mind you, I drank with them). So, the BBQ this past weekend she said she was making hot dogs. I told her “Ok that’s fine, but I am not eating them. Don’t let me. I need to be more careful and so I’m just going to have none.” I even cooked them myself, then of course made my kids plates. ALL WHILE RESISTING TEMPATION! Score! I did NOT eat them, not even 1 bite. I munched on chips and rotel dip while we were there, it felt safer.
-Men hold the door open for me out and about in random places! That feels nice.
There were a few others I was thinking of earlier but now my spastic mind has forgotten, damn it. So if I remember later I’ll share, b/c they are all exciting, of course!
My goal is to shoot to lose another 5 lbs this week, Mary says I can do 7 if I try hard. So we’ll see. I’ll say 5-7, I’ll be happy anywhere in there. BTW, Mary is counseling on my food hang ups. She’s a real motivation and is on MFP daily and watches my food and sends me notes. This may be annoying to some but I am so thankful for it. It’s like she’s a Sr. Bandster and I’ll take any advice I can get!!!
Find me on there (www.myfitnesspal.com) if you want to and haven’t already, my screen name is Lizandrk.
In short, today was NOT awesome, it was craptastic! I did NOT figure out my issues but I did pamper myself a bit and I did NOT emotional eat. I only ate when I was hungry, just didn’t make the best choices. Drama in the fam will soon go away and to them, all will be normal again. For me, I’ll just stay out of it all to maintain my sanity. Oh and I never made it to workout. Time flew away from me and when I did have time I thought about it and thought “ehhhhh”. So I didn’t make it. I will be going tomorrow though, for sure! Oh that also means I missed Monday PM Zumba. I get another shot to try it out Wednesday, we’ll see.
xoxo,
Lizzle
Then I thought all weekend how could I squeeze a workout in. I did do my exercises at home (sit ups, push ups, dips, etc.) and I’ve been doing them every single night. The soreness in my arms feels wonderful! So Saturday I got in a light swim at my Moms because for about 45 mins literally swimming around, takes more effort than I remember, lol! Ate well Saturday (1275 calories) . Sunday: No workout and ate about “ok”, 1468. MFP says I should eat 1700/day and I can’t figure out why it’s so high. My ultimate “don’t go over” goal is 1500. My goal is 1200.
So then to today. I woke up fine, a little sad and lonely but I went about my day. Took the boys to summer day camp and came home to take care of some business. Was planning for a workout by mid morning after I came home and prepared myself a healthy, home cooked meal (trying to not do Fast food and I was doing it EVERY SINGLE MORNING). So this “come home to eat healthy” thing was new. So I made scrambled eggs w/ a lil cheese, 2 little sausage patties and 1 slice of wheat toast. I couldn’t eat it all so next time I’ll cook less. I thought it was a great start to a healthy day. Then I just never could get around to the gym. I had an “argument” with my sister this morning after having one with my Mom last night. And it just made me feel like everyone was out to attack me for some reason. That on top of the fact that I cannot JUST CALL S when I need to vent or be loved on….well it just sucked. It was a morning from hell, one in which I even commented about on my FB and generally I resolve to put NO NEGATIVE OR WHINEY ASS statements on my FB page, b/c I think that’s lame. But I let it get to me today. In fact, I let it ruin most of my day. I spent the day at home, sad, moping around, not talking to anybody. I felt like I had nobody to talk to. In reality, of course I did, I could’ve called somebody.
But in that sad moment I thought it’d be a good time to think about these insecurities S has brought up in me. I literally sat at my computer starring at the blogs (not reading), just starring for 20 mins, thinking. Finally I felt like I was thinking myself in circles and I’d just go lay in my bed with my ever cozy and comforting pillow. I did that for about 45 mins listening to “Bridge Over Troubled Waters” by Aaron Neville just wishing I had someone who cared about me THAT deeply, namely…A MAN! So just kept thinking and thinking and thinking and was going no where. It’s like maybe I was trying too hard to figure out what’s going on inside. So I decided I’d go and get hair cut today. Hair now:
Not really "fixed" yet, I just had it straight and down, but here it is!
That made me feel better. Then I decided I’m going to color it. My Choices:
Yet to color it though, because I can’t decide. Dark and passionate or light and flirty! Think I'm gonna do light on top and dark underneath!
I’ve yet to write an article for my writing job, which blows because obviously I need the money from that. But I feel like while I’m at odds or just “blah” about S that it seems as though I have no motivation to write. I am highly motivated to write with I’m gooey in love or extra pissed at men. I don’t know why it always turns out that way, but it does really help my writing.
I’ve had about 1347 calories so far today and no dinner, really. I did the healthy breakfast, made a banana protein shake to take with me on errands (delish!) and then came home starving for some reason and made a “healthy” cheese quesadilla (wheat tortilla and RF cheddar cheese, very little) and it was wonderful! Then ended up having tea and snacking on sun chips. So haven’t had dinner but I’m not hungry so I may skip it.
NSV’s recently I forgot to share:
-We were at McDonald’s about a week ago and I was getting me and the boys dinner. I roll up to the “get your food” window and the lady sticks out a milk shake and says “We accidentally made an extra strawberry shake, would you like it for free?” (OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG FREE!) AND I said “Please, no thank you!” and she looked at me like I was crazy! Score! 1 point for Liz!
-We were in Wal-Mart this past weekend and as we were leaving I knew we’d be walking past the little fridge with Monster’s in them. I usually will get one when we grocery shop b/c it’s so delish. I saw it, eyed it, said no, eyed it some more, said hell no, and just kept on walking!!! ‘nother point for Liz!
-This past Saturday as we were at my moms and the boys were swimming, my mom decided to BBQ hot dogs and junk. Hot dogs, I don’t know why, are a recent add in to our family BBQ’s. We used to be so complicated and only do heavy meats, potato salad, baked beans, etc. But lately Mom is going for easier and she started this the end of May. There have been THREE BBQ’s since the end of May, all of which I partake in the hot dogs. I had missed hot dogs. I don’t eat them often, hadn’t in forever. But made on the grill, I had forgotten how yummy. All 3 of these BBQ’s I had 2, yes 2, hot dogs ON buns and did manage to eat them w/o getting sick (mind you, I drank with them). So, the BBQ this past weekend she said she was making hot dogs. I told her “Ok that’s fine, but I am not eating them. Don’t let me. I need to be more careful and so I’m just going to have none.” I even cooked them myself, then of course made my kids plates. ALL WHILE RESISTING TEMPATION! Score! I did NOT eat them, not even 1 bite. I munched on chips and rotel dip while we were there, it felt safer.
-Men hold the door open for me out and about in random places! That feels nice.
There were a few others I was thinking of earlier but now my spastic mind has forgotten, damn it. So if I remember later I’ll share, b/c they are all exciting, of course!
My goal is to shoot to lose another 5 lbs this week, Mary says I can do 7 if I try hard. So we’ll see. I’ll say 5-7, I’ll be happy anywhere in there. BTW, Mary is counseling on my food hang ups. She’s a real motivation and is on MFP daily and watches my food and sends me notes. This may be annoying to some but I am so thankful for it. It’s like she’s a Sr. Bandster and I’ll take any advice I can get!!!
Find me on there (www.myfitnesspal.com) if you want to and haven’t already, my screen name is Lizandrk.
In short, today was NOT awesome, it was craptastic! I did NOT figure out my issues but I did pamper myself a bit and I did NOT emotional eat. I only ate when I was hungry, just didn’t make the best choices. Drama in the fam will soon go away and to them, all will be normal again. For me, I’ll just stay out of it all to maintain my sanity. Oh and I never made it to workout. Time flew away from me and when I did have time I thought about it and thought “ehhhhh”. So I didn’t make it. I will be going tomorrow though, for sure! Oh that also means I missed Monday PM Zumba. I get another shot to try it out Wednesday, we’ll see.
xoxo,
Lizzle
Cute hair... it reminds me of my friend Jaye she chopped all her hair off and looks the same.
ReplyDeleteYay to fresh new looks....
My hair is so long and i havent done anything to it in SOoooooooooo long. I dont have the balls to change it yet lol
I'm sorry you had a bad day. They are never fun.
ReplyDeleteYou would look good as a red head! Totally sassy like you!!!