Gush! Gush!

I want to share something with you guys that I haven’t been able to share with many others. I will do as I always do here, and just be honest. I have been in this blissful state the last two weeks and I feel sad I cannot share it with others. I started seeing someone…





The reason I cannot JUST share with the world is because it’s odd circumstances and it’s been fast! Fast! So about 2 wks ago a old family friend contacted me on fb. We’ll call him S! He is my sister’s age (31) and went to school with her in Arkansas when they were kids and then they were good friends after school as well. They were best friends until he divorced his wife about 3 years ago. Then the distance just grew for them. He just got set up on FB in May and found me immediately through my sister. He msg’ed me and complimented my photography of Az and wanted to see if I was “Jenn’s sister”. We chatted for a good day about where I am now, I’m older, he divorced, has two kids, etc. I remember him mostly from when I was 12 because that was the last time I was around Arkansas for extended period of time.




So we just chatted a few days. He clarified that I am single and asked me 1000 questions about my life and we texted and emailed a few more days. Finally, he got serious and starts complimenting me hardcore; you’re beautiful, gorgeous, the most amazing woman I’ve ever met, you’re so perfect to me, why aren’t you married yet, you are incredible, so precious, too sweet, etc. Well I will be the FIRST to admit I am a huge fat sucker for compliments. That goes back to issues in my child hood but IF anyone compliments me I just adore them! J He asked me if I’d ever move back home (oh because YES, he is in Arkansas) and I said no. Sadly, I am in love with the state of Az and I feel in my heart this is my home. So many reasons I could share with you guys about why Az is perfect TO ME!




Ok sweet talk started day 3, no sex talk, fast forward 2 weeks and I want to see him more than anything. I am this quirky, independent, resistant soul who does not like to follow rules but when someone gets to my softer side I am a hopeless romantic! All you have to do to get to softer side of Liz is compliment me. OMG people and let me tell you what I did. Haha! So, like day 4 or 5 he was starting all this serious talk and my initial reaction is “push away” cuz I’m just fly like that. So we’re texting and I tell him




“Listen. You sound so sweet. But I don’t do sweet. I need a man, a man’s man, masculine and tough and maybe even a bit arrogant. When I get around sweet, weak men I tend to run all over them just b/c I know I can. I do not appreciate weakness. It makes the bitch come out of me if I can’t have any respect for you, and I can’t have respect if I am more unemotional than you are.”




So I figured that’d be good enough to run him off right, because he is so sweet. I don’t really know him well enough to know if he’s “weak” persay but that’s just a flaw I have, I cannot stand super sweet men. So I sat there waiting to get a text back that I was a bitch and he’d stop wasting his time, lol. Well, to my dismay… I was floored and flaggergasted by what he wrote back. He said, I quote, “That’s hott!” LOL! I dunno why but a few times I’ve pulled out the whole “Here’s a secret as to why I’m awful and not perfect, so here’s your chance to run” and it HASN’T WORKED! I mean who does that? Who puts all their crap and flaws out in the open and says “OK, you can go now” and it doesn’t work. I have pulled out this trick before and it works. Because men are so predictable that they just coward down and get scarred. NOT THIS ONE. My sister, his friend, has approved this whole courtship drama because she says he’s the best guy I’ve ever liked. Problem….big problem….1800 miles!




I don’t do distance. God, do I hate distance. Last guy I dated lived like 60 miles from me here in Phoenix and we only saw each other once a week and I HATED THAT! Maybe I’m the smothering type, I’d like to think not, but I like frequently seeing someone that you think is awesome!




So now we’re trying to plan when we will SEE each other without my kids around b/c I have this huge deal about not letting my boys meet men early on, I wait awhile to protect them. So I will be back home in early August for a family vacation and I will for sure see him then. But I’d prefer that to be our 2nd meeting. Right now he is planning on coming to Az in the next few weeks when he can get time off work. He has a really great job but it requires him to work 70-80 hrs a week, called in on his days off, working 12-18 hr shifts, and traveling 1-4 hrs for work, they just send him all over (oil field work). So as soon as he can find out if he can get a few days off for sure, he’ll be out here. And I literally cannot contain myself.




I don’t think I’d mentioned it above yet, but I AM SMITTEN. Him dodging my rejection, liking my moodiness, and thinking my quirkiness is adorable is making me fall for him. He actually likes my flaws. When he says I’m perfect, I tell him he’s crazy, and he says I’m perfect FOR him.




So I guess I just wanted to share to tell you that I adore a man 1800 miles away and I’d do anything to see him in person again. An old family friend, I trust him, I like him, he makes me melt. I have felt special every single day since I started talking to him. AND I have felt beautiful every single moment. We take pictures of ourselves doing normal stuff around the house to send to each other just so we know what the other is like, haha, (corny right?) and I sent him one of me without make up on in my laundry room folding laundry (lol) and he loved it and said I was so amazingly beautiful without makeup. Gush! Gush! Stuff like that all the time. So he makes me feel beautiful, sexy, healthy, thin, any other positive word you can think of. I just want to squeeze him and hold his face in my hands! But I think we really need to get the show on the road and meet up so I know if we have physical chemistry and hang out and have fun! Like can he make me laugh until my face hurts? Will I feel good when he holds me? Will he be awfully bashful in person? All those things we can only know after we get to chance to BE together. So I am excited for that moment, so I can clarify in my head what it is we’re doing here. As of now, I have no clue. Just feels good!

Xoxo,
Libby in la-la-la like??? Oh God!