TRUTH TUESDAY!!! ;)

I read an article in Redbook today with Jillian Michaels. And she said this, “…when you live in the truth, you are transparent. Transparency Is happiness."


This stuck w/ me. I heard a quote on Air1 (christian radio) the other day saying that this dude thought it’d be awesome if everybody’s dirty laundry was aired out on the 9 o’clock news so they had NOTHING left to hide and thus, had to cling to Jesus.


My thoughts are this: When you are honest and you tell people your business, they have no way of hurting you. I have been in a position several times (being from a small town) where rumors swirl about you, true or not, people talk shit about you (in the workplace) people misunderstand ONE thing you say in a conversation and assume it makes you a “certain” kind of person. I am frequently misunderstood in talk, in person. Here, I try to be honest and frank. I try to be frank, all the time. It was a quality of my Grandmother’s that I adored and never had the nerve to display…until recently. So dealing with rumors and such I have experienced that when people are going around talking, talking, talking shit about you…it’s b/c they WANT YOU to be pissed off and riled up OR be hurt. That is their 1 purpose.

So I have a way of dealing w/ this that works so very well, and I just wanted to share it with you. One thing I began doing recently, is I YELL THE TRUTH. If someone is talking about me at work saying I talk too much (this has happened) then I just go straight up to that person and I say. “Did you tell so and so, that I talk too much?” This part, is hilarious. Hehe! They clamer and fall all over themselves, shocked, that I am calling them out on it. Like they think I should just whisper and gossip about it, just like they are. But I don’t. I am not a coward as they are. :D I don’t tolerate or participate in gossip. But so the times I’ve done this they don’t admit the truth, nor do I expect them to have the balls to repeat whatever they said TO MY FACE while I’m standing there smiling like a banchey! (cuz that’s just how I roll). So, I usually say something like “Ohhh, ok well then. Because I just wanted to clarify with you and be straight and act like a grown up and tell you that I do talk a lot. I love it. If you have a problem with, take that up with your boss or mine. I don’t plan on changing who I am anytime soon just because something about me irritates you. Have a fabulous day!” and Peace out I go! I did this several times at my last job. To one hideous individual in particular. Ugh!

But the best way to get people to STOP talking trash about you is HAPPINESS!


***Insert sing songy voice here***


True happiness, my fabulous followers, cures the root of all evil. I guess I could be wrong. But I do know for a fact that my enemies HATe to see me happy. Whether this be ex friends, ex boyfriends, co workers or a particular (not fabulous) step mom that I have. Doesn’t matter. They WANT me to sad and down and whiney and blah blah blah! Well they don’t get it and I LOVE IT! Because I, am a genuinely happy, optimistic blissful individual. I don’t let people hold me down or make me feel like shit. And if they do get to me, I get it out of my system quickly and don’t stay in that ho hum attitude for very long. Because when your co worker see’s you walking through the hallways, smiling at other people, maybe mouthing the words to your favorite song, pep in your step, smile AT THEM, etc. they freakin’ hate it. Because I know for a fact, these people who cause or start drama are very miserable people. I feel deeply for them, but it doesn’t mean I need to be their fake-friend or therapist. I just show ‘em who’s boss, live my life full of happiness and hope they hate it! So I just hope people REALLY enjoys seeing me happy w/o all their drama and life sucking negativity, because people, I WILL NOT CHOOSE THAT PATH FOR MYSELF!


OH and that co-worker stopped talking so much crap about me when she realized I would not play into her game, she could not make me sad and she would not bring me down! Work bitterness will NOT dim my shine! I try to not let ANYBODY dim my shine!


So with the fact that truth can get rid of gossip, the truth will set you free, and (as Jillian said) with truth you are transparent… I had a thought….


This is an idea I’d like to entertain and see what you guys think. I’d like to start a “TRUTH TUESDAY”. (kinda like BYOC) My idea is for it to be a weekly blog where I write about something truthful about myself that I may not like, be proud of, or maybe even be ashamed of. I do believe that when you set your truth free, you are free to be you. Some negative truths about ourselves bury us. We can carry them around like burdens, constantly not wanting anyone else to know and THIS can suffocate us.


So what I’m proposing is that I’ll write a weekly post on Tuesday am (or Monday pm) stating a truth about myself. If you guys will follow suit, that’d be amazing! I want to be set free. My whole life my secrets or things in my past have weighed my down and held me back. I can no longer accept this. I’ve got all you followers, my real name is now published in an online blog, and I have always been so insecure about being “so public” because I’m from a small town where everybody talks shit. And this "public" and secrecy thing is what held me back from publically writing for so long. I was worried someone I knew from the small town would SEE my writing, dislike it, and talk crap about me. NOW, I know that anyone can and will dislike what I have to say. So I'm just going to be confident and put my OPINION out there. So, for this weekly blog, I’d like the truth to set me free. I don’t know how real honest and open I can be. If I’ll just tell truths of myself or if I’ll dig deep and share intimate shameful things from my past. I guess it’ll depend on how I’m feeling that day.


So even though today is Wednesday, I’m starting right now. Let me know if you’d like me to keep this up or if you’d like to join in.


My truth today…


… I was in a mentally and emotionally abusive relationship for a year. It was ok “healthy” for the first year, then was abusive the last year. That man made me hate myself so deeply, I could barely look in the mirror at myself. I hated who I was. I went from 230 to 270 in that last year when I was with him. I had always been overweight but w/ him I got huge (huge to my standards). This man is the father of my youngest son, so I have to deal with him on a weekly basis when he calls to talk to my son. The happy Liz you guys see on here, did not exist before my surgery. He had, figuratively, beat me to the ground in spirit. When people email me, FB me or comment on here that my happy, optimistic spirit comes out in my writing, I FEEL SO BLESSED! Blessed that I can so easily convey that to you guys in my writing and that you pick up on how genuinely happy I am. It took a long time and a struggle to get to this place.

xoxo,
Liz